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Kaveh ([personal profile] ohthehumanities) wrote2023-06-16 10:38 pm
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catchall; jonas

go to therapy challenge: failed
westedge: (These feelings I feel inside)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-06-29 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ haha.

anyway, it's fine. everything is fine, and just as quickly as those feelings had come up, they sort of fizzle back out to something neutral and quiet. ]


I think this entire game's designed to try and make us uncomfortable, but...you're definitely not the worst person here. [ kind of a compliment. ] And I trust your judgment anyway, fancy or not.

[ at which point he wanders to the sink. he's settling into the chair in front of said-sink and he only hesitates briefly before prying the beanie off to reveal he is actually bald.


and by bald i mean his hair's pretty thick and kind of messy under it. it's sort of growing to the point of being shaggy like he hasn't trimmed it for a few years, but it looks clean and healthy enough. ]


Most of the time I'm wearing this thing, so...I haven't really looked at my hair that much recently.
westedge: (Feeling safe)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-06-29 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ a charming little grin? ]

I like everyone on your team? Does that count? [ it should because there are some people with team members that he's more lukewarm on. go to sleep has been pretty decent in his books.

either way he's not rushing this, staying seated to let kaveh look him over even if he eyeballs the shampoo and conditioner. ]


There's been a lot going on here. But even before this I didn't pay attention much. There was a lot going on there, too. [ conversational if anything. ] And not dealing with it was cheaper than even trying to figure stuff out.
westedge: (These feelings I feel inside)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-06-29 06:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I've figured the same. She's too nice for her own good half the time. [ which elicits a tiny thread of worry on her behalf from him, but it wavers out easily. the other thing is, the longer kaveh actually explains step by step the more he may pick up that jonas seems to be settling down. it wasn't very obvious to begin with, but it's a little more clear now when the guard drops bit by bit. sometimes you are a person who has a very hard time trusting people and situations. sometimes you don't want to admit that, so when people at least give you warnings...it helps.

there's a noise of interest at that because that's not really a thing he thinks people should understand. it also doesn't entirely fit his mental image of who kaveh is, but he's starting to notice this pattern where he's talking to people and still not entirely sure who they are or what they're like. he had this same realization with shu, actually, which is funnier given they're teammates. even as he lets kaveh get to the preparations he's still talking. ]


I feel like maybe being in school would've been a good enough excuse, but I get the feeling things in Sumeru are really different. [ in terms of status and the like. there's a moment where he's not sure where to go from there, but he does decide to tentatively keep up that line of conversation. ] For a while, it wasn't really that unheard of for me not to go home at night and still have to go to school the next day. Eventually it started being more of a style choice than a cover. I guess I should maybe consider changing that here, but...it's still sort of one of the things that I don't have to think too hard about.

[ it's comfortable, is what he means, when everything else is fucking chaos. ]
westedge: (This magic is tragic)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-06-30 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)
There's always something else. [ close to an agreement, at least. it's not a top priority because there's always something happening or someone changing things. he doesn't flinch from the water, and he says pretty still while kaveh's hands work even with the little tendrils of dread that blip in and out. do or die has always been the name of the game.

but simultaneously, they do have several days before then to take time to do other things. if people can find pleasure in other things, that's all the encouragement jonas needs to think about trying it themselves.

even if it's a joke, there's a weird squiggle of an unidentifiable emotion that settles on embarrassed briefly before dropping away entirely. ]


Right. Yeah, changing a look would be enough to change an impression. [ it's a joke back. ] Can't say there's anything like that, really. Not that I'd blame anybody that did have a case for that.
westedge: (I found something interesting)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-07-01 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ sometimes you run very fastly from your emotions and also the emotions of other people. he can respect kaveh minding his own business, even with the beat of gratefulness in his emotions when the man hands over a towel and takes a step back. all of this has been fine, but the space is much appreciated and slightly needed. ]

Never, really, but also especially now. If finding happiness in someone else helps make a miserable existence less miserable, then sure. Who are we to stop them? [ toweldrying, toweldrying. ] Or even people who're using love as their motivation to find their way back.
westedge: (Wasn't prepared to be read like Tolstoy)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-07-02 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ yeah i'm sorry that i have to say that this is a mood for both of them. it's something of interest, the way kaveh handles these things. it's something maybe he'll poke around later. ]

You get what I mean, shitty wording or not. [ but he pauses as he thinks on it. ] Plus there's the idea that love means many things. [ he raises an eyebrow, gauging kaveh again. ] You don't have to tell me what it is. But you have a reason, right?
westedge: (Ah yeah)

[personal profile] westedge 2023-07-03 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's a respectable answer. for a moment, jonas looks at kaveh as if he's trying to assess if it's true or not. and after a few moments longer, he nods. ]

Front's fine. Just a little. [ is what he says first, because yeah. he would prefer to know what's happening at the moment. it's only when kaveh approaches with the scissors and looks like he's close to starting that he speaks up again. ]

Pretty sure that's Alex's goal, too. So I get it. It's not a bad reason.