Thursday night. [He puts the bat down, taking a step back.] Shenhe--you probably know this already, but she was from the same world as myself and Nahida. [...] I wanted to figure it out for her. I should have been able to.
[He should probably stop her from hurting herself, but you know, he's a healer. He can take care of it if it gets too bad. And beyond that--he understands that sometimes, a little pain is the only thing that helps keep your mind clear.]
I think other things were in play. I keep coming back to that flamethrower. [He did genuinely want to help with Lambda's case, too--it's just that Shenhe took his attention. He sighs.] And I suspect teammates were covering for each other. In the worst case, we would've been working against eight people, not just one or two.
[So it's kind of not surprising that they were fucked over, but also, that doesn't make it feel better.]
I think it's safe to assume teammates are always gonna cover for each other as long as they know what happened. Even...Buzen did, even though he really didn't want to. And even if they don't know what happened, no one's gonna throw their own teammate under the bus.
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Same for me and Lambda. We're not from the same world, but...finding her killer is the least I could do for my teammate.
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It feels like we had so many pieces, and yet we had nothing at all at the same time.
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I just--either we were missing one little thing, or we had everything but were just overlooking the one thing that would help us figure it out--!
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I think other things were in play. I keep coming back to that flamethrower. [He did genuinely want to help with Lambda's case, too--it's just that Shenhe took his attention. He sighs.] And I suspect teammates were covering for each other. In the worst case, we would've been working against eight people, not just one or two.
[So it's kind of not surprising that they were fucked over, but also, that doesn't make it feel better.]
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[He looks very sad at the thought of Buzen, but only briefly, before he pushes it away.]
I keep telling myself that I should be more understanding. That everyone deserves the chance to fight for their life.
[But it's so much harder when it's personal.]
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[Like... he understands that it was probably a tough fight, since he can't envision Lambda giving up easily. But also. What the fck.]