[The answer is no, of course--but for once, Kaveh doesn't feel guilty about it. For all that he's selfishly lost in his own pain, he knows that everyone else is reeling and hurt, too.
He doesn't bother to answer the question, though he appreciates that she asked anyway.]
But for now yeah he's just. Allowing himself to be sad because literally who is not sad except for the people who are angry, which is also valid. Kaveh is still furious too, he's just too tired for it right now.]
...Do you think they're still around? On a different [What was the word they'd used] frequency?
That's not a guess it's—something I asked Ruby. I mean, I asked more about people who are erased when the rest of their team is alive, but... Unless there are different kinds of being erased...
It's clear from his face that he didn't know this--it is, perhaps, the one thing that could've broken through the state he's in today. His eyes widen a little, and his energy shifts--not better, exactly, but. It's something. The flickers of something a little less hopeless, the tiniest sprout of green in burnt soil.]
... I don't know. She had said that people go back to whatever the afterlife is in their world if they don't win the game or whatever, but... I don't know if we can... trust that anymore.
[ so why is she trusting any of it? because she is a fool. ]
But she had said that, like... If a team wins with enough points, they could bring back their erased teammates.
Yeah, the only thing I've learned from all that is that... You can stumble into points just by doing stuff, even outside of tasks. But what that stuff is... [ she shrugs. ]
And that anything you do of your own free will is worth more points than something you have to be coerced into by a Mission.
[Hmmm. Well, that's all good information to know, if he can figure out how to work with it.
He leans his head back.]
It feels like they should tell us if we ask. That's taking initative too. [He doesn't like being punished for not wanting to kill. It makes it feel like this isn't about survival at all, just... brutality.]
I asked Kiichi about it, but he didn't have much to say. He didn't seem to think it was anything important. [Which is why he hasn't really talked about it to many people.] But Nahida was wondering if there was some way we could find out what happened in that previous game. I think she was hoping there might be a chance those people saved their Erased. [And Kaveh's not exactly an optimist, but they have to try every route they can.] Even if they couldn't, it might be good knowledge to have. We might have a better idea of what to expect.
[Honestly, yeah. But Kaveh's of the same mind as Alex anyway, and he'd promised himself he would keep trying, so it's worth looking into. If they, like. Can.]
Do you think the reapers would tell us, or would they dismiss us?
Right... She seems like someone who's used to taking on a lot of responsibility for people. Like a God should, I guess, except she's not really any different from the rest of us right now.
Yes. [He sighs softly.] She's the god of wisdom and knowledge, in Sumeru. Of course she doesn't have all the answers to everything, and she can't work miracles... but it's got to be difficult for her.
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He doesn't bother to answer the question, though he appreciates that she asked anyway.]
...He was so afraid of being abandoned.
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Does it make it easier to think of them all as, like... together, somehow? The whole team?
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But for now yeah he's just. Allowing himself to be sad because literally who is not sad except for the people who are angry, which is also valid. Kaveh is still furious too, he's just too tired for it right now.]
...Do you think they're still around? On a different [What was the word they'd used] frequency?
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That's not a guess it's—something I asked Ruby. I mean, I asked more about people who are erased when the rest of their team is alive, but... Unless there are different kinds of being erased...
[ she feels like it's the same thing. ]
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It's clear from his face that he didn't know this--it is, perhaps, the one thing that could've broken through the state he's in today. His eyes widen a little, and his energy shifts--not better, exactly, but. It's something. The flickers of something a little less hopeless, the tiniest sprout of green in burnt soil.]
Do they just stay that way? Forever?
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[ so why is she trusting any of it? because she is a fool. ]
But she had said that, like... If a team wins with enough points, they could bring back their erased teammates.
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More than one?
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[ hrm. ]
Do you think points are, like, something you can spend when this is over? Like... Like tickets at an arcade?
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He doesn't know what an arcade is, but he gets what she's trying to say.]
I have no idea. I asked for a little more detail on the points--things like how much each task is worth--but they wouldn't tell me.
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And that anything you do of your own free will is worth more points than something you have to be coerced into by a Mission.
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He leans his head back.]
It feels like they should tell us if we ask. That's taking initative too. [He doesn't like being punished for not wanting to kill. It makes it feel like this isn't about survival at all, just... brutality.]
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[ yeah. she doesn't love that there's a way to force them and a way to punish them for needing to be forced. ]
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Setsu told you about that message we got, right? After that "special mission"?
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Sure, maybe. Either way, knowing more about whatever game this one is based on will be good.
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Do you think the reapers would tell us, or would they dismiss us?
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[ ... ]
Still worth asking.
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[Which is frustrating. He's not used to not having the answers. To not having access to the people who can make change.]
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But I wish I could think of more. Some... I don't know. Something. An idea. A lead. Anything.
[ ... but no. sometimes you're just trapped. ]
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... But it's—it'll be fine. We're all here to back her up, so.