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[I cannot consistently capitalize my day/week headers to save my life this is killing me
ANYWAY
After making a big ol' fuss, Kaveh is... around! Somewhere. Just chilling on a curb somewhere, probably, nursing a coffee and gazing out at the shadowy figures around them. He seems lost in thought, and a touch sad--though his expression clears when he sees Matsui, and he straightens a little, greeting him with a nod.]
Matsui, wasn't it?
ANYWAY
After making a big ol' fuss, Kaveh is... around! Somewhere. Just chilling on a curb somewhere, probably, nursing a coffee and gazing out at the shadowy figures around them. He seems lost in thought, and a touch sad--though his expression clears when he sees Matsui, and he straightens a little, greeting him with a nod.]
Matsui, wasn't it?
[HELP i dont even try
But nice! What a mood. He also likes sitting places and being depressed! He'll come join Kaveh where he's vibing on the curb, though he has no food or drink to speak of.]
Yes, that's correct. You look distressed.
[TO SAY THE LEAST AFTER ALL THAT.]
But nice! What a mood. He also likes sitting places and being depressed! He'll come join Kaveh where he's vibing on the curb, though he has no food or drink to speak of.]
Yes, that's correct. You look distressed.
[TO SAY THE LEAST AFTER ALL THAT.]
[SOMETIMES LIFE JUST SUCKS. Or death, apparently. Damb.
At Matsui's words, he blinks, looking momentarily uneasy before he tries for a reassuring smile.]
Oh... no, I'm alright. I was just thinking.
At Matsui's words, he blinks, looking momentarily uneasy before he tries for a reassuring smile.]
Oh... no, I'm alright. I was just thinking.
Yes. [He leans his head back.] A young lady--I think her name is Elizabeth? She suggested that it might be a case of power. That whoever is able to bring us back may not be capable of doing so for all of us.
[Which would make this whole thing... still kind of fucked up, but like. Less inherently malicious than he'd initially felt, and thus, infinitely more complicated.]
[Which would make this whole thing... still kind of fucked up, but like. Less inherently malicious than he'd initially felt, and thus, infinitely more complicated.]
Making a game of it is still unpleasant. Specifically, making a game which involves erasing other players to get closer to winning.
[Matsui himself feels no particularly great offense about it, but he has a feeling it might be something Kaveh doesn't like.]
[Matsui himself feels no particularly great offense about it, but he has a feeling it might be something Kaveh doesn't like.]
[Matsui is Correct. Kaveh nods, looking troubled.]
Not long ago, I was in a competition back home. The person behind it turned out to be... someone who believed that humanity was inherently hopeless. Doomed to violence and hatred. He wanted to convince the world that his findings were objectively correct. [...] My father passed away shortly after coming into contact with his research.
[So. This whole thing is kind of... prodding at sensitive, painful memories and experiences.]
Not long ago, I was in a competition back home. The person behind it turned out to be... someone who believed that humanity was inherently hopeless. Doomed to violence and hatred. He wanted to convince the world that his findings were objectively correct. [...] My father passed away shortly after coming into contact with his research.
[So. This whole thing is kind of... prodding at sensitive, painful memories and experiences.]
[Sasuga, sensitive lad... There's perhaps something in the shifts of his microexpressions that might seem vaguely sympathetic as he nods.]
Then it's unpleasant for you to end up in a situation like this so soon. But you do seem like the sort of person who would find it difficult regardless.
[He doesn't say it like it's a bad thing, though. Moral compasses are good! For humans.]
Then it's unpleasant for you to end up in a situation like this so soon. But you do seem like the sort of person who would find it difficult regardless.
[He doesn't say it like it's a bad thing, though. Moral compasses are good! For humans.]
I think most normal people would.
[Rang and Lambda are outliers and should not be counted]
[Rang and Lambda are outliers and should not be counted]
[They're............trying.]
People who are unused to being in positions where they must take a life to sustain their own.
[It's a gentle correction without any judgment. NORMAL IS RUDE, SIR.]
People who are unused to being in positions where they must take a life to sustain their own.
[It's a gentle correction without any judgment. NORMAL IS RUDE, SIR.]
[Kaveh's expression shifts to something thoughtful, and he tilts his head slightly.]
Isn't that normal? [Not arguing--just curious.]
Isn't that normal? [Not arguing--just curious.]
[Sweet Kaveh, who he can immediately tell has never lived through a violent war, famine or plague.]
For those who are fortunate enough to live through the periods of peace... But such periods are often fleeting on the grand scale of time. On a whole, at least in the world in which I inhabit, those who are fortunate enough to proceed through life without blood on their hands are far fewer.
For those who are fortunate enough to live through the periods of peace... But such periods are often fleeting on the grand scale of time. On a whole, at least in the world in which I inhabit, those who are fortunate enough to proceed through life without blood on their hands are far fewer.
[MATSUI IS CORRECT. He hasn't had an easy life, but all his suffering has been on a very individual level.
Kaveh's quiet, though, as he takes that in. Now he feels bad... he already felt bad... now he feels worse...]
...I suppose that's true. I apologize for speaking selfishly. [A pause, as he gathers his thoughts.] But even during such times, there are always people who want to help others, no?
Kaveh's quiet, though, as he takes that in. Now he feels bad... he already felt bad... now he feels worse...]
...I suppose that's true. I apologize for speaking selfishly. [A pause, as he gathers his thoughts.] But even during such times, there are always people who want to help others, no?
[NOOOOOOOO MATSUI JUST MAKES THINGS WORSE HE HAS THE MIDAS TOUCH OF MISERYYYYYY]
It is nothing to apologize for. [A small but genuine smile.] In an ideal world, everyone would be able to think in the way that you do.
[Calling murderers abnormal... Some are, to be fair... RANG. As for the rest of that, the smile falters a little and thins, but he still nods.]
That is true, as far as I've experienced it.
It is nothing to apologize for. [A small but genuine smile.] In an ideal world, everyone would be able to think in the way that you do.
[Calling murderers abnormal... Some are, to be fair... RANG. As for the rest of that, the smile falters a little and thins, but he still nods.]
That is true, as far as I've experienced it.
[HELP it's okay, there's truly no winning when it comes to this Sad Lad with Big Feelings.
And Matsui's words help, insomuch as words can do anything at all in this situation. He smiles a little, and his shoulders lower slightly--not nearly enough to be called "relaxed," but it's a start, at least.]
...Then it's my responsibility to do the same, whatever form that may take here.
[Also: In your face Alhaitham PBBT]
And Matsui's words help, insomuch as words can do anything at all in this situation. He smiles a little, and his shoulders lower slightly--not nearly enough to be called "relaxed," but it's a start, at least.]
...Then it's my responsibility to do the same, whatever form that may take here.
[Also: In your face Alhaitham PBBT]
[Kaveh you are too good to be in this group of murderous weirdos. also i keep typing kaven help
Matsui will let this lad be his optimistic self because who is he to argue?? But he does, at least, have a thin word of warning.]
Just be sure that you don't stretch yourself too thin, or attempt to help the wrong individuals. In a high stakes situation such as this, it is unwise to underestimate the desperation of your opponents, or to expect that everyone - or even others at all - will share your desire to aid.
Matsui will let this lad be his optimistic self because who is he to argue?? But he does, at least, have a thin word of warning.]
Just be sure that you don't stretch yourself too thin, or attempt to help the wrong individuals. In a high stakes situation such as this, it is unwise to underestimate the desperation of your opponents, or to expect that everyone - or even others at all - will share your desire to aid.
[KAVENLMFKDSJHGKJ that's his YA protag name
Also Kaveh is truly just here like "damn I need to do a better job at looking like I'm okay." But he nods--dejected, but not hurt or offended or anything.]
Yes, I know. I'll draw the line when I must.
Also Kaveh is truly just here like "damn I need to do a better job at looking like I'm okay." But he nods--dejected, but not hurt or offended or anything.]
Yes, I know. I'll draw the line when I must.
[Dejected at the reminder is better than this fool doing something nice and getting murdered for it... Matsui just nods.]
Very well, then. As long as you keep that in mind, then I'm sure you will be able to offer aid safely. Or as safe as one can be in circumstances like this.
Very well, then. As long as you keep that in mind, then I'm sure you will be able to offer aid safely. Or as safe as one can be in circumstances like this.
[I hate it here. We're in hell even if we're free
ANYWAY I WROTE UP MY WHOLE STARTER BUT IT'S FUCKING GONE NOW SO YOU GET A SLAPDASH VERSION I'M SORRY. Matsui can find Kaveh at Mcdonald's, curled up in a booth; there's a half-empty coffee cup next to him, but his gaze is fixed out the window, and he doesn't seem inclined to touch it.
He won't glance over until Matsui comes closer; when he does, he just greets Matsui with a quiet nod.]
ANYWAY I WROTE UP MY WHOLE STARTER BUT IT'S FUCKING GONE NOW SO YOU GET A SLAPDASH VERSION I'M SORRY. Matsui can find Kaveh at Mcdonald's, curled up in a booth; there's a half-empty coffee cup next to him, but his gaze is fixed out the window, and he doesn't seem inclined to touch it.
He won't glance over until Matsui comes closer; when he does, he just greets Matsui with a quiet nod.]
[He will just take a seat across from him, giving him space because he has no fuckin clue how to properly comfort a person going through it. And he's sure Kaveh is going through it...]
...Hello.
[HI LAD.]
...Hello.
[HI LAD.]
[That's fair and valid. Kaveh doesn't want to be fussed over anyway; he already feels so ridiculously guilty, and all the concern from everyone just makes it worse.
Still, he won't turn Matsui away. He's too desperate for company for that, even if he won't ever admit it.]
You aren't hurt, right?
Still, he won't turn Matsui away. He's too desperate for company for that, even if he won't ever admit it.]
You aren't hurt, right?
[Good thing for Kaveh, Matsui's fucking terrible at fussing over anyone who isn't Buzen. He's too stilted and awkward and emotionally disconnected to do a good job of it, and everyone just has to suffer.]
No. It appears as though our blimp landed safely.
[FUCKING HELP.]
And you?
No. It appears as though our blimp landed safely.
[FUCKING HELP.]
And you?
[You're really making me do this to Matsui
Kaveh is walking through the new area, looking around. He looks like he's trying to find someone... when he spots Matsui, he perks up and comes over!!]
Have you seen Buzen?
Kaveh is walking through the new area, looking around. He looks like he's trying to find someone... when he spots Matsui, he perks up and comes over!!]
Have you seen Buzen?
[THE LOOK HE GIVES IS
SO
FUCKING CUTTING.
HELP.
HEEEEELP.
Matsui's had such a terrible morning and this is just one more thing on the pile of terrible shit that's already happened to him. He's vibrating with murderous energy!!! But at least it's not directed at Kaveh (yet).]
Why do you want to know where Buzen is?
SO
FUCKING CUTTING.
HELP.
HEEEEELP.
Matsui's had such a terrible morning and this is just one more thing on the pile of terrible shit that's already happened to him. He's vibrating with murderous energy!!! But at least it's not directed at Kaveh (yet).]
Why do you want to know where Buzen is?
[YOU DID THIS!!!!!
Fortunately or not, Kaveh is very sensitive to people's energies--it may not be directed at him, but it's enough to make him pause. Hmmm.
Unfortunately, red string pull too strong]
I'm not sure, actually. I've just been getting the feeling I need to find him, for some reason. [HMMM. Maybe this will help...] Do you want to come with me?
Fortunately or not, Kaveh is very sensitive to people's energies--it may not be directed at him, but it's enough to make him pause. Hmmm.
Unfortunately, red string pull too strong]
I'm not sure, actually. I've just been getting the feeling I need to find him, for some reason. [HMMM. Maybe this will help...] Do you want to come with me?
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