[It's not like Kazuki's wrong. Kaveh knows that--knows that by caring so deeply about the rest of them, he is, in essence, dragging them down by proxy. Isn't this why he cut contact with his mother? Isn't this why he turns away, again and again, from every sign that Alhaitham does not hate him as much as they both claim?
But he can't do that here. It's too late, even if he wanted to try. And he knows himself too well--his ridiculous longing for companionship would drive him back toward everyone else one way or another.]
I don't want to take that away from you. [That much, at least, he can say easily.] But all I can do is promise to try. [And if that's not enough, he'll understand.]
[ the question is... should he believe it? that kaveh will really try. he's heard similar platitudes before that didn't mean anything, and he's tired of them already.
a pause, and kazuki's shoulders slump, letting some of the tension he'd been holding onto melt away. ]
I'm going to hold you to that.
[ this may be as close to accepting an apology as he can get right now, but maybe it's better than nothing. ]
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But he can't do that here. It's too late, even if he wanted to try. And he knows himself too well--his ridiculous longing for companionship would drive him back toward everyone else one way or another.]
I don't want to take that away from you. [That much, at least, he can say easily.] But all I can do is promise to try. [And if that's not enough, he'll understand.]
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a pause, and kazuki's shoulders slump, letting some of the tension he'd been holding onto melt away. ]
I'm going to hold you to that.
[ this may be as close to accepting an apology as he can get right now, but maybe it's better than nothing. ]