ohthehumanities | catchall; wolfwood

[ Wolfwood meanwhile who is very liked but he himself does not really actually realise it... ]

It's called self-awareness. I know I'm not the most friendly guy on the planet, especially when standin' next to blondie.

Maybe not, but you're not difficult to talk to. [Kaveh is biased though, yeah.] And I think any comparison to Vash is unfair, really.

[Vash is just so easy to get along with... it's like cheating...]

I'm just a realist, that's all. Or some people might call that pessimism.

Some people don't like that very much.

That's because they don't know how to debate with people like you. [Kaveh just out here judging random ambiguous people as he sticks his feet into this hot spring, testing the temperature.] But at least you'll bother to hold conversations. And do fun things, even if you put up a fuss about it.

Sounds like this Alhaitham is really a character.

[ But the memory... ]

...But also sounds like you still trust him a lot.

[A few weeks ago, he would've tensed, clammed up, wildly deflected--even now, it's kind of reflex to freeze, to open his mouth with a denial on his tongue.

But what's the point? Wolfwood already saw one of the lowest points of his life. And even if he hadn't, there's no telling when the last of their privacy will be ripped away from them. And it's not like he needs to be Kaveh, master architect, the Light of Kshahrewar here. He might as well be honest.

(It feels so small now anyway. Compared to the things he's seen from others.)]

I trust him to be himself. [Muttered, because he can't not have an attitude when Alhaitham is concerned.] ...But I do owe him a lot. I couldn't stay at Lambad's forever, but I didn't know what else to do.

[Sometimes you feel like a horrible little urchin leeching goodwill off of someone's kindness, but your other option is sleeping on the street and you're trying to uphold your reputation for the sake of your juniors.]

[ Wolfwood can't fully relate, if only because he's never been the type to 'leech', so to speak, off of anyone's goodwill. He was practically raised in the dirt, self-sufficient and undying, and no matter the cost, he'd somehow survive. He never had time to do anything like wallow. ]

You ever thought about leavin' to someplace else? Like that Liyue place.

[ Why not travel... if it's just because Kaveh loves his home, which Wolfwood gets the sense that he does ever since the simulation home tour, he'd think that's fair. ]

[It's a fair question, one without an easy answer. It's home, yes, and he does love it a little too much to run away. It's the fact that he quite literally can't afford to leave, that the only reason he has a roof over his head is, weirdly enough, because of Alhaitham--someone who is a staunch defender of his privacy, routine, and quiet life, all of which are disrupted by Kaveh's presence in his home. Kaveh still doesn't understand what happened there.

But beyond that...]

My mother lives in Fontaine now. I did consider going to her, but... [But Kaveh is the spitting image of his parents, as well as the monster that tore his family apart, as far as he's concerned. Even with his new perspective, it's hard to let go of that old guilt.] ...my father's death destroyed her. She only found happiness when she left Sumeru--it would've been cruel to bring reminders of the past back to her doorstep just because I couldn't solve my own problems.

[He'd spent so long pretending he was fine, that he could raise himself the rest of the way, that he wasn't lonely and grieving and afraid. He was okay for her sake, because he couldn't burden her with more than he already had, and that holds true even today.]

[ Sometimes... your popular canon boyfriend just becomes your really surly 6' manic pixie dream girl... ]

I hope you can figure out how exactly you want to live your life.

[ Which, with the memory of the old sage and Kaveh's rejection of that proposal, he gets the image that Kaveh is on the right track but he means overall. Taking a step in the right direction doesn't necessarily absolutely mean he's got it all worked out. ]

[I'm shaking what does this mean

That actually makes him laugh, though.]

Well, thank you. But that's the one thing I do know.

[It just doesn't come out as much here, given... everything.]

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